For the last time

Less than 24 hours until my tummy tuck and liposuction!! Ecstatic doesn't even begin to describe the way I feel.  Tonight we are going out, and it just hit me that this will be the LAST time I will "suck it in" to fit into my jeans, the last time clothes go flying this way and that due to the fact I look "fat" in EVERYTHING.  I can't believe that in less than 24 hours I will be an IDEAL me. FINALLY!! To be honest, I have always felt extremely more self-conscious around men than around women, especially while eating.  Everywhere I went, when a man would stare, I would think in my mind, "Is he thinking I shouldn't be eating this, due to my weight and largeness?"  Getting a tummy tuck and liposuction is a HUGE step for me, it's not one step closer or on the cusp of being ideal, it IS ideal. The counters and tables are full of Vitamin E-oil, Tylenol, Cocoa butter, magazines and pillows.  The jello is setting and hardening in the fridge, the ginger ale is cooling, as I am impatiently awaiting the day to be "an ideal me."